Coming out is hard when you've dated a boy before and you have Mormon parents.

I bought some cute pins and a wristband at Hot Topic, which I was going to hide from mom, but she found out anyway. Then she wanted to have a "discussion" about it. And we discussed after dinner. She asked a ton of hard questions.

Here's what she thinks/knows:

I decided to be a lesbian 3 months ago
Bell decided to be, too
I'm doing this just to get attention
I'm crushing on Bell and Bell has no idea
I haven't talked to Bell in three months, and I only did it the time Mom busted me

and after all that, she never really figured out I've been lying to her.

Also, she put the most horrible thought in my head:

What if when I get down there, she's grown up and moved on and has no interest in me anymore?

That would break my heart and I'd probably kill myself. TT-TT

-TJT