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Coming out is tricky TT-TT

Sun Jun 7, 2009, 7:20 AM

Mood: Compassion
Listening to: Nothing...
Reading: Nothing...
Watching: Nothing...
Playing: Nothing...
Eating: Nothing...
Drinking: nothing....

Coming out is hard when you've dated a boy before and you have Mormon parents.

I bought some cute pins and a wristband at Hot Topic, which I was going to hide from mom, but she found out anyway. Then she wanted to have a "discussion" about it. And we discussed after dinner. She asked a ton of hard questions.

Here's what she thinks/knows:

I decided to be a lesbian 3 months ago
Bell decided to be, too
I'm doing this just to get attention
I'm crushing on Bell and Bell has no idea
I haven't talked to Bell in three months, and I only did it the time Mom busted me

and after all that, she never really figured out I've been lying to her.

Also, she put the most horrible thought in my head:

What if when I get down there, she's grown up and moved on and has no interest in me anymore?

That would break my heart and I'd probably kill myself. TT-TT

-TJT

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~Yoshemo Jun 7, 2009, 7:43:44 AM

Love lasts forever. She may love someone else but she'll always love you

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~Shemo

~TheJTeam Jun 7, 2009, 7:45:17 AM

Aww, thanks yosh :3

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~Bastran Gives my life purpose. Don't be mean.

OH MY GAWD! SNAKES IN THE DRAIN! *faints*

~Elvishhobbit Jun 7, 2009, 9:59:49 AM

ooh, ach, I'm still closeted, must be hard
I'm here for you <3

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Puttin' On The Ritz;;
Why yes, yes I do need to make everything you say a bad sex joke, thank you for noticing
"I'm not comfortable violating you"

Tea Time

~TheJTeam Jun 7, 2009, 10:02:50 AM

Thankies :3

It's really hard to come out

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~Bastran Gives my life purpose. Don't be mean.

OH MY GAWD! SNAKES IN THE DRAIN! *faints*

~Elvishhobbit Jun 7, 2009, 10:07:26 AM

:3 any time
I can only imagine

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Puttin' On The Ritz;;
Why yes, yes I do need to make everything you say a bad sex joke, thank you for noticing
"I'm not comfortable violating you"

Tea Time

~Yoshemo Jun 7, 2009, 10:19:33 AM

np ^^

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~Shemo

~TheJTeam Jun 7, 2009, 10:25:25 AM

*nodnod*

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~Bastran Gives my life purpose. Don't be mean.

OH MY GAWD! SNAKES IN THE DRAIN! *faints*

~TheJTeam Jun 7, 2009, 10:25:38 AM

just be careful when you do :3

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~Bastran Gives my life purpose. Don't be mean.

OH MY GAWD! SNAKES IN THE DRAIN! *faints*

=Hauntzor Jun 7, 2009, 11:10:00 AM

Here's how I see it:

This is just to me, but you seem a bit too young to be considering things like this. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm not denying you're gay or anything, I explained the same thing to Bast.
The only thing I'm concerned about is that you're rushing to put a label on yourself when you may not quite know what you really feel. I mean, you dated how many?... one guy in your entire life? Why give up with being straight so early? How do you know all relationships with men will work out like how yours and Dagger's did? How do you know that being a lesbian will change everything?

Again, I'm not trying to contradict with your choices, and I don't even know if my advice will help; I've never really had to deal with this, being straight and all as I am, but I just say this because I care about you, I really do

. But now I'm just worried about lots of things that may happen when/if you actually do decide to come out, that it will ruin the rest of your youth or something.
Of course, that may just be the skeptic side of me acting up as usual, I really have no way of knowing for sure...

But just remember, no matter what path you decide to take, just remember when everyone else has left you, we're always fighting by your side. I know I will